Crap Eating

Have been eating too much rubbish - think its because I've been at home not doing anything.
Have had only one outing this week - rest of the time we've been to the park everyday, and my daughter has played with the neighbours child who is the same age - 7.

Have had two good walks - tues night, wednesday morning. Am going to head off with the kids shortly down to the park. Heaps of housework will count as physical activity too!!

While I was tidying up some drawers, I found my first weightwatchers food journal from 2004 when I was 120 kgs. It was interesting to see that I walking at least an hour everyday - I had a double mountain buggy and just used to put both kids into it and off we'd go. I was still with their dad then and he would NEVER come walking with us or look after the kids so I could go by myself. And he was the one who used to give me a hard time about my weight!!!

I lost 2.1kgs in my first week, and averaged about 1 kilo to 500 grams a week after that. I ate a lot of bread - used to have toast for breakfast, sandwiches for lunch and pasta for tea. I had the time to make things from scratch because I wasn't working fulltime - was only doing about 2 days a week if that.

In the June of 2004 I was down to about 110kgs it had been a bloody hard struggle to get that weight off. Then I found out my partner was having an affair.....which was hardly surprising given how bad our relationship was!!

He left at the end of June and I lost about 8 kilos in a month through stress. I walked everyday still and when the kids were with their dad, I used to go for big 10km walks.


Whats changed in the last 3 years...... I've kept off most of the weight I've lost, but its a real struggle for me. My eating is not the greatest and I've got an all or nothing attitude.

I have very little spare time now that I am working full time and only have limited time when the kids aren't here. My lunch breaks are only 1/2 an hour, so no time to walk during then.

Am thinking about having youngest child in push chair and oldest on her bike so that we can take off for a walk when I pick them up after work.

The night they go to their dad, I can go after I drop them off.

I just need to focus and remember I've done this before and just need to change my bad habits that I've slipped into. I don't shop once a week either and never menu plan like I used to which is what helped me in the beginning a great deal. One day at a time......